Twisted perception due to my undying obsession
Building confusion from my distilled illusion
My minds clicking and the clocks are ticking
Slowly dying and soulfully flying
Sometimes forgetting, but never regretting
The joker is hollow ,nothing to follow
Can't find affection, lost my direction
Now I'm falling, sweet angels are calling
Distilled illusions from confusion

Allegra,Singulair,Sythroid,Floxnase,Albuterol,Flovent,Wellbutrin,
Pro-Zac,Prednisone...

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ARTIST IN MIND [link]
Mental illness link to art and sex[link]

THE SURREAL ARTS

I´m moderator in *the-surreal-arts working with the master *gromyko ,a great artist. So please visit the club, support the artist and buy their art!
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I´m so happy because of the beautiful memories of my last vacations through Prague, Warsaw, Krakow and Budapest.

Beautiful places, beautiful people, great surreal experience visiting museums and art galleries with awesomes master pieces...

[link]SAUDEK

(ufff! one of my favorites photographers)





[link]VIKTOR SAFONKIN

I had the chance to buy this reproduction:
"the guardian angel"



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I´m moderator in *the-surreal-arts working with the master *gromyko ,a great artist. So please visit the club, support the artist and buy their art!

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SURREAL PRINTS Vol. 1: [link]
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May 22. Amsterdam
May 23. Prague
May 24. Prague
May 25. Prague
May 25. Prague
May 26. Warsow
May 27. Warsaw
May 28. Cracovia
May 29. Cracovia
May 30. Budapest
Jun 01. Budapest







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The emptiness, The emptiness, as the emptiness falls down on me…



I had once thought
that maybe this was life.
No love, no hate, no feelings.



My deepest feelings would never be shared.
I was so frightened,
I didn't know what to do.
Scared of this one man all my life.



Face my fear, I told myself!
But it's so hard, so confusing.
Do you know what it's like
to wonder in darkness?
It never stops, never ends.



It goes on like a story with no ending.



Do you know how it feels
to be afraid of something
that you can't do anything about?
That you didn't ask for or even think about?
Do you know what it's like? Do you know how it feels?
It's complete and pure emptiness.



poem by: Amanda Rae











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03.31.08. MY RECORD STUDIO IS READY. I´M HAPPY. I EXPECT TO BE RICH AND FAMOUS.

04.08.08. I SAW OZZY IN CONCERT...NOW I CAN DIE.

04.12.08. ZERO FEST IN MEXICO. THE MARS VOLTA IS FUCKING AMAZING, I LOVE THEM.

04.17.08. I´M FUCKING TIRED...IT´S MIDNIGTH...I CAN´T SLEEP...ANOTHER BEER...

04.25.08. MIDNIGTH AGAIN. I HAVE TO SLEEP, I HAVE TO WORK, I HAVE TO EARN MONEY, I HAVE TO EAT, I HAVE TO....SHIT, I HATE TO HAVE TO...

Posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is an anxiety disorder that can develop after exposure to one or more terrifying events in which grave physical harm occurred or was threatened. It is a severe and ongoing emotional reaction to an extreme psychological trauma. This stressor may involve someone's actual death or a threat to the patient's or someone else's life, serious physical injury, or threat to physical and/or psychological integrity, to a degree that usual psychological defenses are incapable of coping.



PTSD displays biochemical changes in the brain and body that differ from other psychiatric disorders such as major depression. Individuals diagnosed with PTSD respond more strongly to a dexamethasone suppression test than individuals diagnosed with clinical depression. In addition, most PTSD also show a low secretion of cortisol and high secretion of catecholamine in urine and the norepinephrine/cortisol ratio is consequently higher than comparable non-diagnosed individuals.



Acute stress reaction (also called acute stress disorder or simply, SHOCK) is a psychological condition arising in response to a terrifying event.

"Acute Stress Response", was first described by Walter Cannon in the 1920s as a theory that animals react to threats with a general discharge of the sympathetic nervous system. The response was later recognized as the first stage of a general adaptation syndrome that regulates stress responses among vertebrates and other organisms.




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